the best way to think is not at all- my banjo screams in the brush like a trapped rabbit (do rabbits scream? never mind: this is an alcoholic dream); machine guns, I say, the altarboys, the wet nurses, the fat newsboys, rubber-lipped delegates of the precious life; my banjo screams sing sing through the darkened dream, green grow green, take gut: death, at last, is no headache.
Charles Bukowski, The Days Run Away Like Wild Horses Over The Hills, Ecco/HarperCollins, 1969
fiz daquelas apostas com Deus e ganhei. mas Deus já não me ama, pois estou a morrer de gangrena gasosa num dos pés, estou a ficar cego de um dos olhos, ninguém me quer, e tu não mandaste a mensagem que ganhei na aposta. é certo que o dia ainda não acabou, claro, mas entretanto são horas de me ir embora e não adiantou de nada. olho para isto e o símile gastou-se. estou muito cansado de conjugar o verbo "olhar" ou o verbo "notar" ou o verbo "observar". o único verbo que vale realmente a pena é o verbo viver. o verbo existir. o verbo ser. mas: olho para isto e não me apetece, não me interessa. uns dias mais devagar que outros, a minha vida vai deixando de existir. é um castigo, Deus odeia-me porque tenho vindo a desistir d'Ele. e de mim. vistas bem as coisas, parece-me que já desisti de mim há muito mais tempo, do que de Deus. e apetece-me chorar, à noite. só que às vezes não consigo. quero acreditar em Deus. a sério que sim. quero poder pedir a Deus isto e aquilo, mesmo que, para isso, tenha de cair no jogo de Lhe agradecer por isto e por aquilo. esperar que esta mulher me diga que me quer, que as coisas finalmente funcionem. que não perca um pé, um ou mais dedos, uma perna, que não morra de gangrena gasosa. que não perca a visão do olho que está a enfraquecer.
Posted at 12:42 pm by Cássio Almirante
Name September 30, 2012 07:44 PM PDT
The dogs are dead.
And they're still incurring evil from their prior life(ves).
Junior Seau is a good example::The real, a 20-something in her next life, making progress in her new life and the gods allow the fake to committ suicide, taking her off the hook for incurring evil in her prior life. AND close the restaurant, her legacy in evil capitalism.
Al Davis should be so lucky.
I want to remind you all of the problem of 10 year-old prepubescent girls being prostituted in the inner cities of America.
Why is it I am the only person who has any urgency to stop this?:::Because it is deliberate!!! The gods will give them all the rope they need.
There was a very real perception that bi-racial was much worse for the white than it was for the person of color. The liberal culture, which was designed and promoted with the god's tools to achieve their Apocalyptic goals, screamed racism when there was a very reasonable explanation for this reality::::
In this white punishment known as the United States the person of color has already adopted the disfavors/temptations intended for another race. But by associating/mating with a person of color the white is newly adopting the disfavors of another culture.
And this is the reason why people of color are not welcome in the United States. The gods control everything:::The perception they want to create, the thoughts they want you to have.
People of color can't recover from absorbing the temptations from two cultures. And why they become more and more like so many blacks in America:::Veterans at absorbing the temptations of two cultures.
To further illustrate this is why California's educational system/funding was ranked #1 when California was white:::Education being the basis of the affluent economic system. Now even public higher education has become unaffordable.
The gods placed us all into our own corners of the globe. As such for thousands of years we spent time and reproduced with out own kind.
This is why mobilty/travel, biracial unions/offspring and partaking of other cultures is a sin::::
Each has it's own elements of disfavor, and by experiencing other cultures you are being exposed to these disfavors, which if people may adopt will make their state even worse than prior.
The United States has been considered a "melting pot" where rejects from around the world were sent when kicked out of their motherland.
Remember, this concept of cultural diversity is an element of the liberal platform the gods used to promote societal decay, revealed on the map with the "beast" that is the SanFranciscoBayArea and the spread of social deterioration that spread to the rest of the country and eventually to the entire globe.
As with so many things in this life "less is more". Sex is one of those things. They used the liberal age to promote casual "free" sex intentionally::Combined with "women's lib" and their initiation into the "trenches" of the workplace as well as other issues like alcohol consumption the people experienced a mass masculinization of the females.
The gods use sex as temptation. This is why the most disfavored among us are preoccupied with it. While some may feel being well-endowed is a sign of favor the truth is just the opposite. And often the result is misogyny, a belittling of the favored gender, and stagnation of the people as a whole.
Less is more. When young women experience passing thoughts which say you're doing something wrong instead of fighting or dismissing the thought you should heed the warning. Sadly in today's world too many experience prolonged periods of promiscuity in their lives, whereas if married by 15 like throughout human history this disfavor was avoided.
Don't forget:::It is children who ascend into heaven, and the absence of sexual activity is one reason. Their general innocence is another, which should help you see the destructive nature of adult life in today's society.
Ronald Reagan spent the communist block into submission with defense buildup, and in the process increased the National debt from $1 trillion in 1980 to $6 trillion when he left office.
W charged both the Iraq and Afghanistan wars to the national debt, honest numbers to come.
The gods used W to initiate the "Great Recession" with deliberate legislation/regulation changes, allowing the sub-prime fiasco and corporate irresponsibility/criminal behavior which led to the multi-trillion dollar stimulous package, pocketted by Republican friends and donors::::$5 trillion charged to the National credit card.
This corruption is one element of evil in the party of good. War mongering is another.
Damned if you do, Damned if you don't::::With the Democrats you subscribe to social decay via liberlism, which WILL lead to the Apocalypse. Republicans are being used by the gods to bankrupt the United States, ultimately motivating people to the point of "desperation prayer" once anarchy presides::::Punishment designed to correct your behavior.
The gods behave monsterously in the course of managing Planet Earth but they demand people be good if you are to have a chance to ascend in a future life.
Not only is doing the right things important (praying, attoning for your sins, thinking the right way:::accepting humility, modesty, vulnerability), so is avoiding the wrong things important as well:::"Go and sin no more".
god won't heal amputees because they deserve it.
They deserve it.
In a former life they were sick monsters who thought they were "earning" by hurting others, perhaps Italian shit like the filth who did the legwork setting up WorldWarII (revenge on enemies, ex:German invasion of dying Roman Empire) and destroying Planet Earth's "Old Worlds". The gods had their real reason behind this::The "leveling of the playing field" in preparation for the Apocalypse. In addition the gods used Italians to prey upon blacks:::Slavery, crack epidemic, gangland wars, AIDS in Africa, celebrating pimping/prostitution of pre-pubescent girls, etc.
Too many of you think the gods like you. In fact they have been shooting at the target on your foreheads for centuries. Want to understand the god's sadistic pathology??:::The gods made bondage up to black Americans with exclusion (oppression, KKK, rouge cops):::100 years of protection from this wicked white punishment known as the USA. You got 100 extra years before the shit hit the fan and decency began to deteriorate hard.
california was different because California is The Beast. This is where the gods placed the most disfavored. They are not entitled to the god's extra help.
The gods have positioned this Situation to look good. They destroyed lives just so they would look good in the public eye. Denying they ruined my childhood entitled them to destroy my health, making my loss complete. They deliberately exceed the deserved abuse in me and others and created bitterness to ensure people fail to recover from their loss.
If people understood they'd see what vicious, depraved shit the gods can be. They pick someone out to use for their purpose and follow through with the agenda they scripted long, long ago.
"That's your alternate." The sole element of disfavor in the next Garden of Eden, setting our new planet on a collision course with an Apocalypse.
Guess it's better than the KKK.
Had to fuck my chances up first though, hun? Stack the deck so hard the cards had to fall in one certain direction?
All these years you could have allowed organic growth of the Situation, but since I would have earned a legacy and you'd be compelled to grant me a minimum amount of time. But your insatiable desire for control compells you to create the freedom necessary to accomplish your preferred strategy:::Minimizing your culpability. And since you have absolute power there is little chance of any other senario occurring.
The god's goal is to create the freedom necessary to justify employing their strategy. German 5th century invasion enabled WWII, Moorish invasion of Italy justified black misery.
The gods don't fight fair. Their positioning is a good example, because you will have to negotiate this theater to succeed. THEN the gods will begin their tactics which will be revealed as unfair.
Anyone the gods role play telepathically or use for positioning in this Situation have a legacy of hurting others, the more they hurt the more eggregious in history their legacy.
The gods used the Black Plaugue to motivate Europeans to pray hard and ascend before Christianity ruined Europeans cultures.